This post is one in a series of posts I had written previously about our endeavors to have a third baby. I hadn't posted anything until now, so forgive me for the information dump. We now know we are having our third baby girl, though we haven't settled on a name yet. More to come, that's for sure!
10/24/12-Tonight was a game-changer for me...to say the least. Matt came home from work and in our normal homecoming discussions about our days and the kids and life in general, he casually, or not so much so, slipped in the fact that he is ready to have a baby. I'd say "another baby", but this would be the first he and I would have together, and his first biological child, so for now it's just "the baby".
Here's where we've been at up until this point. Fact: We have twin toddlers. That's a handful, on a good day. I love my girls, and so does Matt, but let's not kid ourselves that having two terrible-two's isn't challenging. He and I have discussed having more kids in the future, but "future" was all the time-frame I had needed up until now. The rigorous daily routine of diapers, meals, cleaning, picking up toys, grocery shopping, running a business and nannying forced the thought of trying to conceive again straight into the back of my mind--although it has been on my mind.
Many of you know that Matt is a testicular cancer survivor. Those of you who know our backstory know how we met and what extraordinary circumstances transpired in order to bring us together. It's amazing. Without invading his privacy too much, I'll say that since he's been done with chemotherapy, he has undergone several tests to confirm infertility, which is his current diagnosis. He's seen a specialist who believes that if his infertility is not due to chemotherapy, which is unlikely but worth a shot to determine, we have options for conceiving biological children together. If, however, like we suspect, his infertility is due to chemotherapy, we are both open to the option of conceiving a child using Sean's frozen sperm and another round of IVF for me.
We discussed for a bit tonight what our next step should be. We both think that we need to have a consultation with a fertility specialist, and even though Matt has one that he sees here in Boston, he feels that he wants to wait until after we have moved to Salt Lake to have the consolation. I suggested making an appointment with my fertility specialist who oversaw my IVF cycle, so I think that's where we're headed. Tomorrow, I will call and make an appointment with him for a consultation.
Making the decision to have children the first time seemed very natural to me. This time around, there is so much more to consider! I understood how my life would change by adding a baby (in my case, two) the first time, and I seem to have no earthly idea what I'm in for this time around. Good thing I'm excellent at adapting--a perk of being a mom to toddlers!
I'm glad that my life tends to be full. I don't know what I'd do with myself if I had down time! Being busy reminds me that my life is blessed, and that being busy isn't a hinderance, it's a gift. I'm looking forward to this next step in our life! I can't wait to be able to share this with all of you. Until then, I'll tuck this away in my trusty "drafts" folder. If this works out, you're all in for some crazy blog posts!